As I am writing this I am still in shock!
Last night after work Stephen and I talked about POAS. He told me it was fine to go ahead and buy a test on my way home. I of course felt guilty for wanting to do so as we decided we were going to wait for the Beta results to tell all. So much for that. I stopped at Walgreens on my way home and bought a hpt.
On my way home I prayed and prayed that God would allow this to be our time. I wanted to be able to scream to the top of my lungs I AM PREGNANT! I wanted to be able to call my girls (sister's) and tell them it's really true I am pregnant! I wanted to see two lines. So on my way home I am speeding to get there and as I exit there is a long train I have to wait on. After the train clears I get all the way up to the light and wouldn't ya know the light turns red. Im laughing at this point. I know this is God's way of slowing me down, showing me how to have patience. I listen of course and patiently wait. As soon as it turns green I hit the gas and try to get home as fast as I could. Finally I am home!
I get into the house and go straight to the bathroom. Stephen asks me "aren't you going to wait a few minutes?" I said "no im not waiting im doing this right now" So I sit there with the stick waiting to pee. I CAN NOT PEE! I am so nervous at this point I think to myself calm down. Turn on the water in the bathtub that always helps. Sure enough it worked and I am able to get a trickle out. I start staring at the stick waiting for the results and all the sudden I see TWO LINES! OMG OMG! I start screaming "STEPHEN COME HERE NOW OMG I AM PREGNANT LOOK LOOK!!!" There are indeed two beautiful lines. I got my BFP!
It has taken us 10 years to get to this point. We have tried so many different things from natural to every medication you can think of. I never thought this day would come.
I understand we still have a long way to go but I will stay positive until I have been given a reason not to be.
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