I haven't blogged in a while. I think I just needed a break after what was supose to be a great St. Patricks day turned into a week full of disappointment and sadness.
The Sunday before St. Patricks day we decided we could not wait any longer and had to POAS. It was negative, I thought at first maybe it was too early to test. A few hours later I started bleeding. I knew at that moment that this cycle was a bust.
I called the nurse Monday to tell her I started and she wanted me to come in as scheduled just to make sure. Let me tell you that was the hardest day of my life! Walking thru the doors of the hospital I had nothing but sadness and anger. I came back to work but could not stay, I was too emotional to deal with anyone or anything. I got the call back later that day telling me my BETA did come back positive but the numbers were so low (11) that she told me this would not be a good pregnancy. She told me I had a chemical pregnancy and it would not last. I was told to come in again for another beta and they would continue watching it until it went to zero. The following test came back 14, 20 and finally it went to zero meaning the pregnancy was over. Finding out it was zero was a relief. This meant we could try again and very soon!
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